Friday, October 01, 2004

``_____.*$$$ is d root obe all evil....#

Sigh...$$$ is d root obe all evil...she doesn't even noe hw i feel. i cried...nobodi noes...i hide myslf in a corner, cryin my way...dun feel like livin animore, i nid sum1 to took to, bt...i cnt bring myslf to say thingys. And 1 thingy is tt, she dun even noe my exams are rnd d corner. She thinks tt oni my bro and sis hav to study. Jus bcos dey hav beta results, doesn't mean dey gt more thingy to study. And wen i score high marks 4 a subject, i came hm and told her...she's nt interested, sumtimes i wonder if i'm reali her daughter, if i am so, den y is she so unfair?! I'm oso havin my major exam and she dun even noe it...i h8 her...

Wen i cum hm, i hav to help her at her shp, while my sis and bro can relax, i have to do so mani housework...and 1s i nva do, she'll nag nag nag, sumtimes i even have to cook...i hid all dis inside mi 4 so long...nobodi noes...i dun dare tell her hw i feel...

She dotes on my bro...loads, and she still says tt she is fair. Wen we try to defend ourslves, she treaten us by sayin tt she won't giv us $$$ ani more...

Though cryin helps mi to feel beta, it doesn't help solve d prob...wat d use ofmi cryin so much den?!

If i gt d ability to feed myslf, i'll leave dis place a place i so called home, i try to let evrybodi think tt i'm a hapi child...bt...deep inside of mi...i noe tt i'm nt.

Evrybodi thinks tt i have a gd mother...but...no bodi noes wat reali lies bhind mie...if i gt d courage to take my own life...i will...bt, d bad thingy is tt,well...i dun hav...nt mani ppl can understand mie...infact, evrybodi mistaken mie...

I cnt take dis animore...saying evrythingy she said b4...al dis words dey make no sense...i dunnoe wat can i do already...wat eva i do, she's nt satisfied...she'll nva b satisfied wit ani1...

g3rl^gal_scorpio88@hotmail.com^

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